Wednesday, April 28, 2004

-*- unpretty.  

I wish could tie you up in my shoes
Make you feel unpretty too
I was told I was beautiful
But what does that mean to you
Look into the mirror who's inside there
The one with the long hair
Same old me again today (yeah)

My outsides look cool
My insides are blue
Everytime I think I'm through
It's because of you
I've tried different ways
But it's all the same
At the end of the day
I have myself to blame
I'm just trippin'

[Chorus:]
You can buy your hair if it won't grow
You can fix your nose if he says so
You can buy all the make up
That man can make
But if you can't look inside you
Find out who am I too
Be in the position to make me feel
So damn unpretty
I'll make you feel unpretty too

Never insecure until I met you
Now I'm bein' stupid
I used to be so cute to me
Just a little bit skinny
Why do I look to all these things
To keep you happy
Maybe get rid of you
And then I'll get back to me (hey)

My outsides look cool
My insides are blue
Everytime I think I'm through
It's because of you
I've tried different ways
But it's all the same
At the end of the day
I have myself to blame
I'm just trippin'

[Chorus]

[Chorus]

Oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh (oh)
Oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh (oh)

[Chorus]

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lyrics of Unpretty by TLC

words of zee
i dun do lyrics. but this i feel is very apt today.. had a bad day.. went to work for the stupid survey thing... was a tough survey... and like that's not bad enough, we didnt go jurong point as planned... i had arranged to meet dearie there... instead, we went some ulu Rangoon Rd place. and we got lost. urgh. how dumb right.. a guy's fault. but hey, let's not point fingers... *secretly pointing at that guy* (not as if i noe him at all. just another person doing the survey la...)
anyway, abt the tough survey. 1) it's damn long. 8 pages long lor! 2) it's abt some prepaid IDD calling cards, or prepaid SIM cards.. that kinda crap.. i mean, seriously, who uses them man? 3) it's shite money.. not easy. and yet pay so little. urgh. 4) it's targetting FOREIGN WORKERS! argh. and that effectively means that i cant get my friends. wat a load of crap.. 5) it's targetted at MALAYSIANS.. hey look, im not against malaysians.. but well, not that against.. but that impression got worse today. ***seriously malaysians, people like the guy that i interviewed today makes u all look SUPER bad.***
okie here's wat happened. we had been looking for respondents for like, ever.. and then after 2 plus hours of waiting around and searching around, we finally found one for me... and one (my respondent's bro) for my fren... then we went on with the surveys.. then halfway thru the long and draggy survey, this guy turned and looked at his bro and say something like that: "u r so lucky, u got the prettier one..." in cantonese.... he didnt think i would understand a little of canto... but wat a dumbarse right? f*ck. and u noe wat's worse? he's damn ugly himself.. i dun like to judge people by their looks, but like watever man! (note: i just have to say this.. he looks like my fren's bf, who i dun really like.. all malaysianish looks and dao, as if they owned the world. bleh)
and plus, i may not be "pretty", but at least im proud of myself, i have self confidence. wat does it matter if im not as commercially pretty as others? im proud to be who i am, and that makes me pretty, despite what people may deem of my looks. i feel very strongly abt this subject cos i cant stand the way people keep thinking as if commercially "ugly" people shd be insulted or smething.. (note: by commercially beautiful, i mean like the model typical like kinda "beauty".. like big round eyes, sharp pointed nose, thin lips with a little hint of poutiness, defined jaws and everything and everything, with curvy waist-hip shape, flat stomach, slender legs, etc etc... seriously, im not being stereotypical, it's the typical commercial type of beauty aint it?) plus i dun see why im not pretty. every girl is pretty in her own way. and i love myself the way i am.
anyway, after a shite day of work, (earned only $6 from 4plus to 9 plus.. shucks.... ) i went for a late night dip.. hahah at 1045 i went swimming.. shioks.. i lurve it.. cos i was wearing my pretty bikini top.. yummas! so i feel much better now! whee.. and i feel even prettier! cos the bikini is REAAAAAAAAALLY pretty! hehe.. altho i got my dad pissed with me for this swimming thing cos i was being a brat and saying that i dont care i wanna swim. even for 5 mins. hahah... but it helped super a lot! the bikini made me feeel pretty, the swim made me feel so relaxed, the drive made me feel free and the whole thing made me much happier and less mad abt what happened with the work stuff.. wheee.. but really, the most important thing is that it made me feel much prettier.. heh.... once again, i say, i lurve myself the way i am!

***i am pretty!***

unpretty. - 

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